Why can't I concentrate?

• First time leading a meeting at the "new" job: today.
• Fourth annual pilgrimage to the outdoors with the Mexican: this weekend.
• One of the last times to see a friend single: Memorial Day weekend.
• First vacation with boyfriend: June.
• Third official sister trip to Canada: later in June.
• First time backpacking later: even later in June.

Why do I have to stay guarded?

. Fool me once, shame on you.
. Fool me twice, shame on me.
. I love him way more than I should.
. I am gonna be so screwed if I am wrong about this.
. I am way too happy considering the circumstances.

Why am I starting this blog up again?

• I have an adorable twenty-five dollar kitten to brag about.
• My living situation has taken a turn for the awesome.
• I started a new job.
• I am feeling so love drunk that I need to write it down somehwere so I can remember the high.
• I need a new forum for all of these feelings that I am experiencing and this way my friends have a choice on whether or not they want to hear about it.

Why am I not going to be able to move on?

• I feel empty.
• I am still alone.
• Everything in my apartment reminds me of him.
• I do not really want it to be over.
• I don't know. Maybe I made a mistake.

Why am I still undecided?

• I keep thinking too much...again.
• They say that I sound happier.
• I don't want to fight anymore.
• The space has made things better...at least I think so.
• I am not sure I want to risk it.

Why did I give the fortune teller fifteen euros?

• He is the right guy for me.
• I am discretely competitive at work.
• The Temperance card did come up the four times that I cut the deck.
• Thinking too much is a something I have to work on not doing.
• I do live in fantasy.

Why can't a sister catch a break?

• Damn BPA
• Damn NERC/WEC compliance.
• Damn G-9. You, too, G-2.
• Damn mid-year performance reviews.
• Damn co-workers.

Why is there no place to stay in Verona?

• It is less than three months away.
• It will be a Saturday.
• It is an opera town.
• The castle does not want us to live among the help.
• No monies. Boo.

Where did I go wrong?

• He does not get it.
• The second wave of weddings has reached shore.
• Alcohol and I need a break.
• I-D-10-T errors abound in the workplace.
• Damn paperwork is about to make it impossible for me to travel.

Why the break?

• He is in a bad place.
• I am in a sensitive state.
• We fight too much.
• We are too busy.
• I need to reflect.

Why did it get cold all of a sudden?

• They pumped up the A/C.
• The ice cream sounded so tempting.
• All of my throw blankets need to be washed.
• Out with the hoodie, in with the labcoat.
• Epiphanies are not always pretty.

Why does my refrigerator wreak of tequila?

• He wanted me to have a party.
• He wanted to talk to her again.
• He wanted to play games.
• They ran into me at the store.
• I just wanted a cheap snack.

Why have I run out of time?

• I am behind on making my plans for going over there.
• I do not accomplish as much as I would like to over here.
• He gets impatient.
• They may not wait.
• June is half-way over already.

Are you that somebody? Tell me you're that somebody.

• It's Friday, I'm in love.
• Merry Christmas, darling. Happy New Year, too.
• Leave me in a position that makes me feel so damn unpretty.
• My heart it playing tricks on me and it's building bricks on me. I can't break through and I can't face you.
• It just ain't workin' out.